"Don’t you remember how you used to just exist? Corpses, dead in life,buried by transgressions, wandering the course of this perverse world. You were the offspring of the prince of the power of air—oh, how he owned you, just as he still controls those living in disobedience. I’m not talking about the outsiders alone; we were all guilty of falling headlong for the persuasive passions of this world; we all have had our fill of indulging the flesh and mind, obeying impulses to follow perverse thoughts motivated by dark powers. As a result, our natural inclinations led us to be children of wrath, just like the rest of humankind.
But God, with the unfathomable richness of His love and mercy focused on us, united us with the Anointed One and infused our lifeless souls with life..." (Ephesians 2:1-4).
It seems as though I have walked through life wanting to avoid any pain, but do we ever really stop and think that maybe there is a gift in pain. Ashlyn is a young girl who feels no pain. Her family is in constant awareness that Ashlyn is in an ever present danger. Her mother's constant prayer for her daughter is that she will be able to feel pain. As a child, children with CIPA are self mutilators. They chew off their tongue, break bones without knowing it, put their hands in fire without feeling the effects. This list of self mutilation continues until the children grow older and are taught to see the effects. They do not know that jumping off of a roof can hurt/kill them and often, especially for boys, it is too late when they find out. Life is very complicated without the guidance of pain.
Our youth and young adults are getting bombarded with the lies that "pain is bad." They are being taught to shut down some of their receptors that they are born with and live a life of self-mutilation. "Go and have sex with whomever you choose," they are told. "You need to experiment and see what is out there.... drink, smoke, who cares? As long as your not hurting anyone else it is fine." We are no longer teaching them to empathize, have sympathy for others, or to look at what they are doing to their hearts. We are teaching them to "do it again", until there is no feeling left. This is a glorious life of meaning, but it is not without tears. It is hard to set aside those instant impulses of desire and look at what is truly best for us. However, there is another side.
Some of us live in the lie of self condemnation. We take everything to the extreme of self judgement and feel the burden of imperfection. We feel responsible for every little infraction that occurs around us and walk around with gloom on our shoulders. We have allowed fear to keep us from experiencing life. We look at the "Ashlyn's" around us and secretly want a piece of their life. They seem to have daringly gone out and experienced life. We focus on their stories and want their adventures without pain. Painless seems good until we discover what it has taken for them to get to where they are. It is in looking closely that we can see, that seemingly protected heart is only a fragment left of a heart that has been plundered and ripped until their is only a callous left of its broken piece. Neither extreme is a life lived, but "corpses, dead in life, buried by transgressions, wandering the course of this perverse world." Jesus did not come so that the bad would be good, but so that the dead shall live.
We are all in the need of a Savior. We have a tendency to focus our attention to the "bad" and try to make them "good." Is this fair? I see "good" people walking around all of the time as dead corpses because they have no joy, but rules in this life. They have been afraid of others, and what they think. Neither extreme is good. We need to be able to look at life and make good decisions for ourselves that bring good consequences, but we need to be able to have the right heart in this. I have changed my desires, because I have fallen in love with my life, because I have fallen in love with my Lord. It is not because of pain, it has its place, but it is not the reason. It took me years to start feeling again. That came out of obedience, before I could feel. The reason I live the way I do is because through others I felt the true love of Christ. Now it is my turn. I live as I do because He loved me first and in turn I am to live my life in love with others and in the truth that sets us all free.
"He did this for a reason: so that for all eternity we will stand as a living testimony to the incredible riches of His grace and kindness that He freely gives to us by uniting us with Jesus the Anointed." Ephesians 2:7
"He did this for a reason: so that for all eternity we will stand as a living testimony to the incredible riches of His grace and kindness that He freely gives to us by uniting us with Jesus the Anointed." Ephesians 2:7
