For some reason this morning, I woke up wanting to talk about sex. I want to explain the difference between good Godly sex and sex that has been distorted because of the world we live in. The first time that I had sex, I was fifteen. After that, sex is what made me feel wanted, special, powerful, and beautiful. This is how I had power. Sex is a very powerful tool. I know it is, I have used it all of my life. While on one hand I had all of these good feelings; I had horrible self hate feelings of disgust, worthlessness, dirty, used, and betrayed. Sex is not supposed to be used for any of these things, the outcome is supposed to be wonderful. You are supposed to feel closer to your husband and he is supposed to feel closer to you. I would like to compare my two marriages. I want to show what is good and wonderful. I want to help others see the bad, before it gets bad. This is not meant to offend anyone. This is meant to help, so here we go...
My first husband, at first, always wanted me to tell him stories during sex. I would make up different stories about other men having sex with me. We looked at magazines together, and watched videos. I felt wrong about it, but he was my husband so I thought it would be fine, and this is what he wanted. I wanted to please him. One of the bad things about going into the world of porn is that it is never enough. He needed more. So he wanted me to have sex with other men, so that he could watch. I fought this one! I offered him to watch me with other girls, this didn't do it. He wanted to watch me with other men. The whole reason that I got married was so that I could stop having sex with other men. That is how I ended up being a stripper. He could watch me with other men, but I would not have to have sex with them. Sex is like a drug, the more you do it the more you need. Porn is like that too. The more you look at it, the more you need; the playboys just don't cut it for long. We had a lot of sex, but the more sex we had the more violent and empty it became. Ugh, I can't stay in this world any longer; I have to talk now about the other...
Sex with my husband, now, is wonderful. It is Godly! It is good! I have never been more satisfied; I have never had so much sex. Now that is saying a lot. How can sex satisfy without using the stimulants of this world? Trust me it can. This sex is not always wild, in fact, most of the time it is just simple sex. Having MS, I like my back rubbed a lot. Well while he is rubbing my back, we are having sex. It is simple, it is sweet, it is pure, and lets face it, it just feels good. Is it always like this, no sometimes I like to knock his socks off:) But it is with a good caring man who values and cherishes me. Let me tell you it is wonderful. We have sex, on average, 5 to 7 times a week. It is good clean sex. The way God intended. If you need a story to read, read Song of Songs, it will do it for you. Yes, sex is in the bible and it is good.
Do you see that God made sex? It does not need outside influences to be wonderful. In fact those outside influences are never enough, you will need more. So don't even go there. If you want wonderful sex, be good to each other. Men help her out with the kids and the house, so that she is not so tired. Women dress nice or at least take a bath every day and fix your hair and face. If you need to send him out with a quick flash from you, so that he does not need to look at someone else, do it. Keep the excitement, tease one another. Make sure that your spouse knows you desire and want them. God created sex to be good in a marriage. Don't taint it by bringing the world into your bed.
I can talk more about sex, but I don't want to offend anyone. If someone wants more info let me know. I have lived two very different lives, as a married woman. Trust me I have been in the sex industry world and all that it in tells. But after that world, I have been in the good, clean world with a good caring man. Clean is always better than dirty! I can help with discovering the difference, before you have to discover the difference.
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